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TUES. met up with qian after work. so long didnt see her liao. okie. she's enjoying life with her boy. haha. pa pa zhao in town. dinner. home. the feeling is just so nice. =))

WED. go ah ma hse see see her n xiao yi lo. if not say all these grandchildren not filial.

THURS. feel like going out after work. but dont know where to go n dont know wanna ask who out. so last minute la. yet dont feel like going home. im nuts. haha. but in the end, i still went home to rot la. started msging pang n disturb him. n he's complaining sian cos he had to work till night. wahaha. he's prob. im evil.

FRI. loitered in town with kw. saw trey. he's with his gf n future mother-in-law. haha. trey n kw was grumbling there's nth to buy. tnk they too rich sia. die also want spend the money. give it to me la. haha.

TODAY. went lau lau hse early morn, with qian n timothy. the rest cant make it. the last time we visited her was when she's pregnant with a few weeks embryo. n now. the baby is more than a mth old. its a BOY. he's cute. just like nera n zac. =)) here's a photo of him.. judge for yrself. i got myself a crumpler bag and havaianas sandals. *grins*
going out ltr in the night again.

his actions is so cute.
n he loves to frown. haha.
oh ya. he's Issac Soon Zheng Yi.

SUN. work as usual. shall see who gonna jio me for any countdown party. haha.

time flies. another year gone just like that.
we are all gradually growing up. hope 2007 will be a better year for ME n for everyone out there!

HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance.

LOVE~ 19:46

high! slpt for only 4 to 5 hrs this two nights lo.

sat night. dxo. reach home at 5am. sun morn start work at 10am. end work at 6pm. head to pasir ris. dinner at cous hse. had a great time. love it when im with cous! ginger, our kai xin guo. with her arnd, no doubt, you will laugh till you drop. =))

left at arnd 11pm for suntec kbox. uncle daddy send me to pasir ris mrt stn. n he gave me 20 bucks to take cab home after partying. haha. thanks uncle daddy!

reach home at arnd 4.30am. start work at 10am this morn again. for some reason, i was still super alert when working. haha.

sorry guys. couldnt join u all for supper at yhn. how i wish i can split myself up la. hope you guys had a good time catching up. meet up soon.

cheers! merry christmas to everyone out there!

LOVE~ 20:45

they say you can’t miss what you never had.
cry over what never happened,
but maybe it’s what you’ll never get
that you’ll miss the most,
what you’ll never get that’ll bring a tear to your eyes.
but if we always got everything we wished for,
would we truly be happy?
or would it simply be a mask,
to hide the deeper feelings underneath?
who knows what we really want?
but maybe just one moment with him,
touching his lips,
taking him in,
memorising his face,
the way he moves,
holding him against me,
feeling the steady beat of his heart,
just for one moment,
no masks,
no lies,
no strings attached,
would clear things up.
or perhaps it would confuse me even more…

after all this shit. just one msg from him livens up my mood. =))

LOVE~ 19:18

unexpected movie last night. no idea what was it abt. just went ahead to watch it.
The Holiday.

nice show afterall. mentioned of different kind of love at the beginning.
and the worst kind of love: unrequited love.
i so so so agree.

unrequited love
relationships are a pain
especially loving someone in vain
knowing that no matter what you say
he loves someone else that way

when its time to slp, i wished i dont have to. cos i will be thnking of you.
when its time to wake up, i wished i dont have to either. cos yet another day to come. with you still there in my mind n heart.

got no mood for anything. feeling darn low! seriously. hope i wont dampen you guys mood later on when its suppose to be high.

LOVE~ 15:54

im so dead. tomorrow will be the 22nd of dec. which means im ONLY left with one month.
yet to start on anything. just thinking of the skeleton kills me. getting lost. will it be easier once i get into it. hope so.
anybody willing to help. haha. guess everyone is busy with theirs too ba.

LOVE~ 22:15

i hate this feeling! feeling so empty and......no words can describe.

shoo. go away. dont spoil my mood.
joyious occasion is round the corner. i wanna enjoy. i wanna hang out with frens and have fun.
occupied me with things. dont leave me alone. thoughts run wild.
get that stupid feeling away from me.

dear santa, grant me my wish.

LOVE~ 12:23

i hate you. ring your phone till gonna explode le still dont wanna pick up. dont know what you are busy with. make me stand there and wait for more than 15 mins without knowing where the hell are you n whether you are coming not. what is this shit. till now, didnt even receive a call or msg frm you. not at all apologetic. aaarrgghh. even sam gave me a call back n she told me you are out of the church. gosh. me n may gonna screw you up!

afterall..im still loving you! meet up soon. okies..
lets go visit lau lau n small issac by this year. dont break the promise you have with her.

you can dont like me. but you cant stop me frm loving you.

LOVE~ 22:25

LIFE. always full of ups and downs. things dont also go the way we want. we cant controlled much stuffs.

it isnt a crime loving you. its not up to you to decide. regina listens to her heart. so stop asking her to let go n move on. she wouldnt barge.
deep down in my heart. the past we had. the happy times we shared. will be remembered. eternity. you once brightened up my life.

not reading too much into thgs. so dont worry. contented staying this way. as close frens. meeting up occasionally.

take it slowly. somethings cant be hurried. a step at a time. things will fall in place eventually.

LOVE~ 13:31

im home from shopping! damn tiring la. out frm morn till night.

.nike warehse.lil india.far east.wisma.marina sq.
.craziness.fun.laughter.
.ginny.ginger.ellis.justin.feldy.me.

fun fun fun. me n ginger meet up with ellis n feldy at lil india mrt stn. went for some painful threading. then meet justin in town. eat n shop! haha. till arnd 6pm. all left. leaving me n ginger. we went crazy trying clothes. then headed for a hearty meal at the asian kitchen. damn full. walk arnd marina sq n then home.

more of this fun n crazy outings pls...loving it! =))

im a happy girl. wearing the shirt n hanging that gift on the phone. i dont care its only for today or what (hope not thou). im so happy to see that. *grins*

.loving your smile.

LOVE~ 23:28

oh ya. i saw this mini water dispenser yest at amara. so tempted to get it for him. though the penguin one at action city is nicer. the sight of that water dispenser just reminds me of him wanting the penguin one. haha.

like finally..after so long..shopping tomorrow! be it window shop or shopping spree. =)) YEAH!

LOVE~ 13:04

had this mindset that i have to go for acupuncture today. OUCH. its pain. i know. but then its better than my back aching everyday. alamak. old liao. haha. but lucky me, the doctor say, for now go on medication n see how's the condition. if still ache n pain, then must go for acupuncture. =((
i better be a good girl. take medicine on time. sometimes, im just pure lazy ;p

recently, been very pek cek talking to my mum. she simply cant understand what im saying or cant hear me. arrrggh. need repeat alot of times n yet she still cant get me. is she getting old or izzit me that has a prob?

rach changed alot! she became more feminine. haha. rach, if you happen to read this..dont whack me. its a compliment..okie. -runs- wahaha.

missing you..

LOVE~ 22:32

SATURDAY
miss out the 3rd n 4th placing match. was catching up on my beauty slp. haha. crawl out of bed to catch the finals. SINGAPORE vs PAPUA NEW GUINEA.

the atmosphere was high. Singapore won! 1st. 46-41 i knew it. =))

took photos with some of them. TEAM SINGAPORE NETBALLERS leh. damn cool la. admire n aspire to be like them. haha.

Wendy (WA)

Tingjun (WD)

Jean (GK) dont aspire to be like her. but loves the way she plays.

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at night, went mos. was late. jas n sok went ahead 1st. looking at the super duper long queue. me n az wanted to give up liao. happen to see sherwin! my pri sch mate. tag along with him n gang, cos they seems to have ways of getting in. n after much squeezing, finally we are in. damn packed. couldnt find jas n sok. so we just stay close to sherwin n gang. ltr az left me alone with them. stupid az. but they are nice ppl la. haha. left arnd 2+ am to get a drink n nobody feels like re-entering. so chat, rot n home by nightrider. its kind of sherwin to get off the bus n walked me home. THANKS. friends for 12 yrs. worth it. haha.
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SUNDAY
work 2day. got this weird guy patron our stall. me n nizam noticed him long ago. n whenever i see him, i couldnt control my laughter, tnking back all the incidents that happen. im evil. haha. shall nt describe it here. till then... =))

waiting... ... ...

LOVE~ 00:28

game 1: Canada VS Scotland, Scotland won.
forgotten score. wasnt concentrating much.

game 2: Singapore VS Papua New Guinea, cheers to Papua New Guinea. 60-50
Singapore lost. =(( nvm, its ok. will win tomorrow's match!! GO SINGAPORE!!

to jasmin: im so sorry. i've forgotten abt our date. too engross in the netball cup till i totally forgotten. tnk im getting old too. memory deteriorating. SORRY.

to you: thanks boy! for accompanying me go watch thou you are tired. n i tnk it BORES you. haha. but you still endure thru. watching the match with you is much more interesting then watching alone. thanks. n pls tag. dont be lazy! haha.

i wanna join Net4All Singapore 19 & under squad. i wanna take up umpire course. say only. will actions take place? i dont know.

LOVE~ 23:27

im back with 2day's results.

game 1: Canada VS Papua New Guinea, Papua New Guinea won! 54-42

game 2: Scotland VS Singapore, Singapore won! 44-37

tomorrow's game 2 shall be an interesting n exciting one. Singapore VS Papua New Guinea. The 2 winning teams for both nights. and im not watching alone! got some kind soul to accompany me. wahaha. thanks.

to you (if you are reading): thanks! but dont ps me last minute ar. =X

i got the photos frm jane. dont know when will i get it frm quing. haha. nvm. shall post some. here you go.

teck, mas, jane, gin

the babes..

ALL OF US!

LOVE~ 23:28

arrrggh.. my back.. the pain.. is killing me!
guess is cos of the fall that night. =((

LOVE~ 08:42

in the aftnn, had a talk with doryn. viviene isnt happy with my performance. i expected.
you give me shitty work. i give you shitty attitude. so what if it affects my grade. i dont care. what's the point of getting high grade when you learn nth related to yr studies or learn nth at all.

doryn ask for my feedback. she too, feels that i shldnt be in accts dept. now that she's in charge of the nx batch of itp students. i hope she wldnt put the student in accts dept just becos accts dept is short handed. if v.ships hansen has no relevant job for a maritime itp student, i suggest they stop taking us in. i hope i had help change the fate of the nx itp student coming into v.ships hansen. i wldnt want them to be in my shoes. stuck here doing admin work. it sucks!
dor, i believe in you!

last night, met up with jack, jane, jes, josh, step, teck n quing at ps. chat, crap n laugh like nobody's buisness. we are in our own world. haha. had our dinner at manhattan fish market. realised we are always having fishies. mas n may joined us ltr. walked over to the cathay. wanna catch a movie. but most of us are having sch or work the nx day. so..we just hang arnd. there's this pink x'mas tree. so fascinated that we took loads of pics. shall post when i gt them =)) nx stop. rocher beancurd. may was craving for it. i gave it a miss. was still feeling very full frm the dinner. n then home.

1730 sharp. disappear frm work. rushed down to toa payoh to catch the 4 NATIONS NETBALL CUP 2006. countries playing:- Canada, Papua New Guinea, Scotland n Singapore. the match is going on till sat. any kind soul wanna go with me?

game 1: Singapore VS Canada & & & SINGAPORE won! 56-32
Singapore attackers were great. their communication n teamwork. superb!

game 2: Papua New Guinea VS Scotland, PAPUA NEW GUINEA won! 39-36
rowdy match. Papua New Guinea shooters are damn accurate!

more updates on the matches..

LOVE~ 23:28

i dont know what's wrong with me last night. i just blurt out those stuffs. it take lots of courage to do so.
letting go is rather hard. am glad that i HAD been in your heart. =))
i GUESS & HOPE i will be fine. life still has to go on without you. no worries.
friends still.. =))

LOVE~ 09:13

didnt go to work. sick. mc. rested at home.
mummy's sick too. 2 sick person at home = never get well. haha.
people. the weather sucks nowadays. drink more water n rest well.
off to have my dinner. =))

LOVE~ 18:26

sometimes i wish i could tell YOU anything n everything.
yet im afraid to hear what you have to say.

LOVE~ 21:41

aarrrrrggghhh......

i wanna scream my lungs out!!

LOVE~ 00:28

wrong wrong wrong...super duper wrong...

did something damn foolish! not on purpose thou. you might not have noticed. but i find it damn embarassing. just feel like digging a hole n hide.

LOVE~ 00:16